Well this is just to tell you people that I am finally 23 and yeah I havent done great things like other guys might have done but yeah thats the way I am. I am a looser, I am a winner, I am a happy man, I am sad at the same time. Everything goes inside my heart. Yeah by now I have learnt that I have feelings; which are overwhelming sometimes. I have a heart that melts everyday. I have strength, I have weaknesses. I have manners and yeah I am ill mannered to. Everything goes inside me. You know its like a fission reaction. My atoms are being broken all the type. Its not matabolism at all, yeah its fission.

I just had my 23rd birthday cake. It was unusual, no candle lights, no nothing. Just an almond cake with peanut spread on it. Yeah it was tasty but at the same time, life is so tasteless. Yeah this is the only time I remembered by birthday but at the same time I am not happy. I haven’t done any great thing by now. I am so hopeless.